Saturday, October 30
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Sorta just came home. Met Lynn at town this evening. We caught White Chicks. It was really hilarious. No wonder Douglas watched it twice. Yes yes i know, im slow and laggy. People have watched that flick like ages ago. What to do? Im a lonely girl. Haha. My girlfriends are all mugging for their upcoming major examinations now and i have no company.
Saw a couple of familiar faces in town today. Saw Wenyan at Far East. It was sucha coincidence cos Lynn and i were sorta just talking about her. I was complimenting on her good dress sense, nice legs and tann as well as styled hair. And at da next moment, we saw her.
I wish ive her long nice legs. Full of envy now.
Met Adrian and friends aftermath for supper. Been having supper every night these days. Kenny commented that i put on weight and my arms are flabbier now. But it doesnt really matter. Thin or fat, i suffer the same fate. Im ill fated.
Sorta just came home. Met Lynn at town this evening. We caught White Chicks. It was really hilarious. No wonder Douglas watched it twice. Yes yes i know, im slow and laggy. People have watched that flick like ages ago. What to do? Im a lonely girl. Haha. My girlfriends are all mugging for their upcoming major examinations now and i have no company.
Saw a couple of familiar faces in town today. Saw Wenyan at Far East. It was sucha coincidence cos Lynn and i were sorta just talking about her. I was complimenting on her good dress sense, nice legs and tann as well as styled hair. And at da next moment, we saw her.
I wish ive her long nice legs. Full of envy now.
Met Adrian and friends aftermath for supper. Been having supper every night these days. Kenny commented that i put on weight and my arms are flabbier now. But it doesnt really matter. Thin or fat, i suffer the same fate. Im ill fated.
sealed-with-a-kiss < 3:24:00 am
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Wednesday, October 27
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It's a long, long journey
Till I know where I'm supposed to be
It's a long, long journey
And I don't know if I can believe
When shadows fall and block my eyes
I am lost and know that I must hide
It's a long, long journey
Till I find my way home to you
Many days I've spent
Drifting on through empty shores
Wondering what's my purpose
Wondering how to make me strong
I know I will falter, I know I will cry
I know you'll be standing by my side
It's a long, long journey
And I need to be close to you
Sometimes it feels no one understands
I don't even know whyI do the things I do
When pride builds me up till I can't see my soul
Will you break down these walls and pull me through
'Cause it's a long, long journey
Till I feel that I am worth the price
You paid for me on calvary
Beneath those stormy skies
When Satan mocks and friends turn to foes
It feels like everything is out to make me lose control
It's a long, long journey
Till I find my way home to you, to you
It's a long, long journey
Till I know where I'm supposed to be
It's a long, long journey
And I don't know if I can believe
When shadows fall and block my eyes
I am lost and know that I must hide
It's a long, long journey
Till I find my way home to you
Many days I've spent
Drifting on through empty shores
Wondering what's my purpose
Wondering how to make me strong
I know I will falter, I know I will cry
I know you'll be standing by my side
It's a long, long journey
And I need to be close to you
Sometimes it feels no one understands
I don't even know whyI do the things I do
When pride builds me up till I can't see my soul
Will you break down these walls and pull me through
'Cause it's a long, long journey
Till I feel that I am worth the price
You paid for me on calvary
Beneath those stormy skies
When Satan mocks and friends turn to foes
It feels like everything is out to make me lose control
It's a long, long journey
Till I find my way home to you, to you
sealed-with-a-kiss < 5:41:00 pm
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Tuesday, October 26
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Yeah i went shopping today. Bought my beach slippers and a tank top. I simply love the colour so much! Nice ryte? say yes say yes :hehehe:
Was supposed to go tanning with Joanna today at Tampines Safra. Guess what? Once we alighted, the rain came pouring on us. How nice? Shower of blessings eh? What sia! -.- Must be Mr Joshua Kho! Thanks for your curse last night. >.<
Wanted to swim anyhow cos we're all already in our swim wear. But ive a flu and its a really bad one. So we decided not to.
Headed down to town aftermath in our beach wear. So weird! Saw Chewlian. Gave her a big tight hug. Miss her so much..
Joanna and i were both complaining how cold it is. I was so tempted to buy the Adidas jacket just to make myself feel warmer. But no, im on budget. lol.
Met up with Leroy and friends, the TPDB people at Parkway before heading back home for dinner.
Anyway, ive came up to a decision. I shall be independant, not gonna waste my time on guys no more. Ive decided not to be a bitch, a third party whether or not their relationship am having problems. Im not gonna make myself miserable and upset. Every day is gonna be a happy day for me.
Now, how am i to break the news to him? Im afraid i'll lose a friend. I never wanna lose a friend..
Yeah i went shopping today. Bought my beach slippers and a tank top. I simply love the colour so much! Nice ryte? say yes say yes :hehehe:
Was supposed to go tanning with Joanna today at Tampines Safra. Guess what? Once we alighted, the rain came pouring on us. How nice? Shower of blessings eh? What sia! -.- Must be Mr Joshua Kho! Thanks for your curse last night. >.<
Wanted to swim anyhow cos we're all already in our swim wear. But ive a flu and its a really bad one. So we decided not to.
Headed down to town aftermath in our beach wear. So weird! Saw Chewlian. Gave her a big tight hug. Miss her so much..
Joanna and i were both complaining how cold it is. I was so tempted to buy the Adidas jacket just to make myself feel warmer. But no, im on budget. lol.
Met up with Leroy and friends, the TPDB people at Parkway before heading back home for dinner.
Anyway, ive came up to a decision. I shall be independant, not gonna waste my time on guys no more. Ive decided not to be a bitch, a third party whether or not their relationship am having problems. Im not gonna make myself miserable and upset. Every day is gonna be a happy day for me.
Now, how am i to break the news to him? Im afraid i'll lose a friend. I never wanna lose a friend..
sealed-with-a-kiss < 11:26:00 pm
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Monday, October 25
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Oh man, my energy level is now at the minimun. I feel so lethargic all over.
Popped over to Ting's place at 12+, Juan was there. They whipped up some soup and i ate curry. So sinful to have supper eh? No worries!
We blade all the way to Cosy Bay with 2 bumps on my butt again. I was too nervous cos i still could not brake. My ass hurts man. Chilled and had our girls talk. Then we blade back to Ting's place to get my belongings and blade home. I guess now da two girls are still blading and cycling their way home.
Been rotting at home for the past 3 days. Imagine how decomposed i was? Guess i will be staying up till 7am to give him a morning call. Tell me, why am i still doing all these? Guess my heart couldnt say no.
Oh man, my energy level is now at the minimun. I feel so lethargic all over.
Popped over to Ting's place at 12+, Juan was there. They whipped up some soup and i ate curry. So sinful to have supper eh? No worries!
We blade all the way to Cosy Bay with 2 bumps on my butt again. I was too nervous cos i still could not brake. My ass hurts man. Chilled and had our girls talk. Then we blade back to Ting's place to get my belongings and blade home. I guess now da two girls are still blading and cycling their way home.
Been rotting at home for the past 3 days. Imagine how decomposed i was? Guess i will be staying up till 7am to give him a morning call. Tell me, why am i still doing all these? Guess my heart couldnt say no.
sealed-with-a-kiss < 4:03:00 am
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Sunday, October 24
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Alryte man..its time to rant on and on over here. Man, i feel like popping some sleeping pills into my mouth and fall into a good deep sleep. I slept at 11pm just now cos there was simply nothing productive for me to do and guess what? I woke up at 12.30pm feeling all so awake and fresh. And now i cant get back to sleep any further, how am i gonna wake up early tomorrow morning to go to church? :shrugs:
This whole week seemed to pass by very slowly. Ive no idea why, maybe its because i havent been stepping out of the house much. I din go for any exercise this week nor any tanning session with my mates. So much of a slacker heh?
Next week is gonna be my last free week to do anything im fond of before i officially start my training session at Citibank and get down to real working and experience gaining. Honestly speaking, its a little uneasy having the thought of working in Citibank. It just gives me the creeps. I rather not get the job, really.
So i'll prolly make use of my time next week to do something more productive. Tanning, working out and yes to clubbing. Its been a long long time..Oh yes, im gonna clear my drawers and get rid of those notes in semester one. Out out OUT of my life u useless pieces of paper!
Should i make do with my N6610 and buy a digicam? Or buy a new camera phone prolly Samsung E600C cos im so broke right now?
Ive been thinking much about my romance today. The idea of letting go, giving up and stop being a bitch actually strucked me. Is that the only ethical way? So now, is it wrong to fall in love? Or is it wrong to hold on to a love? Why do i always have to give up on my love? Why is it always me getting the hurts and pains? Im always the one giving away the best wishes to my love and his girl. Why is it still me this time? Isnt it time to be someone else?
You asked me if i really love you that much. I couldnt answer but made a joke out of it by saying "lend me a weighing machine, wait till i weigh it before telling you the answer". Im actually trying to escape from answering your question. Because deep down, ive no idea if i really fell for you. Ive no idea how much i love you. I only know, you're the only guy in my heart right now.
Edmund is outta my life. And i know it, cos i wasnt bothered about his birthday today. Not at all. I didnt bother making sure, i didnt bother messaging him, i didnt bother about his existence no more. Time heals all pains. But yet, unhappy experiences flashed through my mind here and there, i guess its something i can never forget. u bastard, caused my life to be in such a mess. If it wasnt for you, me and him would have been together before his girlfriend came along to join in. All thanks to you. I HATE YOU.
Oh yay, its 3.05am already. Hopefully i can get some sleep now.
Alryte man..its time to rant on and on over here. Man, i feel like popping some sleeping pills into my mouth and fall into a good deep sleep. I slept at 11pm just now cos there was simply nothing productive for me to do and guess what? I woke up at 12.30pm feeling all so awake and fresh. And now i cant get back to sleep any further, how am i gonna wake up early tomorrow morning to go to church? :shrugs:
This whole week seemed to pass by very slowly. Ive no idea why, maybe its because i havent been stepping out of the house much. I din go for any exercise this week nor any tanning session with my mates. So much of a slacker heh?
Next week is gonna be my last free week to do anything im fond of before i officially start my training session at Citibank and get down to real working and experience gaining. Honestly speaking, its a little uneasy having the thought of working in Citibank. It just gives me the creeps. I rather not get the job, really.
So i'll prolly make use of my time next week to do something more productive. Tanning, working out and yes to clubbing. Its been a long long time..Oh yes, im gonna clear my drawers and get rid of those notes in semester one. Out out OUT of my life u useless pieces of paper!
Should i make do with my N6610 and buy a digicam? Or buy a new camera phone prolly Samsung E600C cos im so broke right now?
Ive been thinking much about my romance today. The idea of letting go, giving up and stop being a bitch actually strucked me. Is that the only ethical way? So now, is it wrong to fall in love? Or is it wrong to hold on to a love? Why do i always have to give up on my love? Why is it always me getting the hurts and pains? Im always the one giving away the best wishes to my love and his girl. Why is it still me this time? Isnt it time to be someone else?
You asked me if i really love you that much. I couldnt answer but made a joke out of it by saying "lend me a weighing machine, wait till i weigh it before telling you the answer". Im actually trying to escape from answering your question. Because deep down, ive no idea if i really fell for you. Ive no idea how much i love you. I only know, you're the only guy in my heart right now.
Edmund is outta my life. And i know it, cos i wasnt bothered about his birthday today. Not at all. I didnt bother making sure, i didnt bother messaging him, i didnt bother about his existence no more. Time heals all pains. But yet, unhappy experiences flashed through my mind here and there, i guess its something i can never forget. u bastard, caused my life to be in such a mess. If it wasnt for you, me and him would have been together before his girlfriend came along to join in. All thanks to you. I HATE YOU.
Oh yay, its 3.05am already. Hopefully i can get some sleep now.
sealed-with-a-kiss < 2:38:00 am
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Friday, October 22
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Dad reactivated my line this morning and got me a new sim card. My number's still the same, so humans, please message me your number with your name so i can store em in my phonebook. Your great help is much appreciated. Thank you.
Citibank called and i got the job. Training will be on the 2nd of Nov. Good news? Nehs..i wont have much time to go tanning. =(
Got back my semester examination results too. I passed everything but it wasnt up to my expectations. I realised im lousier than many of my friends, and as you peeps know, i cant accept that kinda shit stuffs. So..yeah. Kinda disappointed.
Financial Accountings 1 - B
Principle of Management - B+
Macroeconomics - B+
Computer System and Application - C
Communication Skill 1 - B
Totally shit results. 3-1. Hk defeated me terribly. I CANT TAKE THIS BLOW. oh no.
Dad reactivated my line this morning and got me a new sim card. My number's still the same, so humans, please message me your number with your name so i can store em in my phonebook. Your great help is much appreciated. Thank you.
Citibank called and i got the job. Training will be on the 2nd of Nov. Good news? Nehs..i wont have much time to go tanning. =(
Got back my semester examination results too. I passed everything but it wasnt up to my expectations. I realised im lousier than many of my friends, and as you peeps know, i cant accept that kinda shit stuffs. So..yeah. Kinda disappointed.
Financial Accountings 1 - B
Principle of Management - B+
Macroeconomics - B+
Computer System and Application - C
Communication Skill 1 - B
Totally shit results. 3-1. Hk defeated me terribly. I CANT TAKE THIS BLOW. oh no.
sealed-with-a-kiss < 10:32:00 pm
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Just got home from chalet. Met Adrian and all. Aint in the mood to post much..cos i just lost my handphone.
Things were pretty fine these days. What i missed most are the messages he sent to me last night. And now its all gone. Is this all fate? Come on, stop playing a prank on me. I can take it no more.
Everything can just be gone, but those messages from you cannot. They are just too precious for me. Now i cant give you morning call, we cant sms each other. Im dreading it.
Now Citibank cant contact me whether i got the job, neither can i receive my semester exams results via sms. Everything is just so wrong for me.
Just got home from chalet. Met Adrian and all. Aint in the mood to post much..cos i just lost my handphone.
Things were pretty fine these days. What i missed most are the messages he sent to me last night. And now its all gone. Is this all fate? Come on, stop playing a prank on me. I can take it no more.
Everything can just be gone, but those messages from you cannot. They are just too precious for me. Now i cant give you morning call, we cant sms each other. Im dreading it.
Now Citibank cant contact me whether i got the job, neither can i receive my semester exams results via sms. Everything is just so wrong for me.
sealed-with-a-kiss < 3:28:00 am
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Thursday, October 21
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You know whats the worst thing that can ever happen to me? Its not totally about falling out of love..
Its telling a guy "I Love You" when u jolly well knows he have a girlfriend.
Am i entitled to be called the bitch?
Call me whatever you want to. I aint letting you go. Not till i found someone better to replace you.
I Love You
I Love You
I Love You
I Love You
I Love You
I Love You
I love you..
You know whats the worst thing that can ever happen to me? Its not totally about falling out of love..
Its telling a guy "I Love You" when u jolly well knows he have a girlfriend.
Am i entitled to be called the bitch?
Call me whatever you want to. I aint letting you go. Not till i found someone better to replace you.
I Love You
I Love You
I Love You
I Love You
I Love You
I Love You
I love you..
sealed-with-a-kiss < 2:44:00 am
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Wednesday, October 20
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Sometimes i wonder, how much i actually weigh in your heart. Do i have a stand in your love life right now? Your words and actions towards me are blowing hot and cold. This could cause a severe breakdown in me, like an incurable flu becoming worst because of the unpredictable weather.
Sometimes i wonder, who the genuine third party is. Was it me or her? Now that she's yours, what am i? Tell me im not just a normal friend, cos from the way things are right now, i dont wanna be a normal friend. But yet i know, i am me and you are you. We have no linkages between each other, not at all.
Sometimes i wonder, if im doing the right thing. By literally giving you the hugs and kisses and forgoing my beauty sleep as an opportunity cost to give you a morning wake up call, is it legitimate to do that on account that you've a girlfriend and she isnt me? Now, am i called the bitch that people label? Or a boyfriend stealer that everyone despise?
Sometimes i wonder, why ive to tangle myself in this triangle relationship when i could enjoy my own lovey dovey one. Why havent i let go despite all the arguments and realization, all the truth behind the facade, all the lessons learnt. Why havent i awaken from my naivety, instead, indulging into it more and more, deeper and deeper.
Give me an answer dear boy, just what am i to you? Yes, the truth always hurts. And again, do i really wanna know the harsh fact, the truth?
Now, im incoherent with grief. So just..ignore me.
"I dont wanna know
shi qu ni you duo tong
wo zhi yuan wei ni chun zai
jiu suan zhen ge shi jie dou shuo wo zhuo cuo
no no no
I dont wanna know
wo bu zai dui shui sheng chu wo de shuang shou
ying wei ni liu gei wo yi ge wei wan de meng
I dont need to know
ni ji mo de shi hou
dang ni bi shang ni de shuang yan
wo jiu hui zai ni zuo you"
Sometimes i wonder, how much i actually weigh in your heart. Do i have a stand in your love life right now? Your words and actions towards me are blowing hot and cold. This could cause a severe breakdown in me, like an incurable flu becoming worst because of the unpredictable weather.
Sometimes i wonder, who the genuine third party is. Was it me or her? Now that she's yours, what am i? Tell me im not just a normal friend, cos from the way things are right now, i dont wanna be a normal friend. But yet i know, i am me and you are you. We have no linkages between each other, not at all.
Sometimes i wonder, if im doing the right thing. By literally giving you the hugs and kisses and forgoing my beauty sleep as an opportunity cost to give you a morning wake up call, is it legitimate to do that on account that you've a girlfriend and she isnt me? Now, am i called the bitch that people label? Or a boyfriend stealer that everyone despise?
Sometimes i wonder, why ive to tangle myself in this triangle relationship when i could enjoy my own lovey dovey one. Why havent i let go despite all the arguments and realization, all the truth behind the facade, all the lessons learnt. Why havent i awaken from my naivety, instead, indulging into it more and more, deeper and deeper.
Give me an answer dear boy, just what am i to you? Yes, the truth always hurts. And again, do i really wanna know the harsh fact, the truth?
Now, im incoherent with grief. So just..ignore me.
"I dont wanna know
shi qu ni you duo tong
wo zhi yuan wei ni chun zai
jiu suan zhen ge shi jie dou shuo wo zhuo cuo
no no no
I dont wanna know
wo bu zai dui shui sheng chu wo de shuang shou
ying wei ni liu gei wo yi ge wei wan de meng
I dont need to know
ni ji mo de shi hou
dang ni bi shang ni de shuang yan
wo jiu hui zai ni zuo you"
sealed-with-a-kiss < 1:14:00 pm
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Sunday, October 17
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Once again im munching on my supper - Grape biscuits and milo though i just had my dinner at 9pm. I aint that hungry but i just felt like eating. Im sucha greedy girl. =D
As i was saying yesterday, i was packing my stuffs and came upon lotsa stuffs ever since my Primary School days. There's this girl, she was my bestie in Primary One. Her family migrated to Shanghai when we were in Primary Two. But we've been contacting each other via letters for some time before we officially lost contact.
I came across this letter which stated her email address, so i decided to try my luck in msn. Guess what? We're now chatting so excitedly with each other. Oh man, i miss her truckloads. She's so pretty and smart! RJ can? I feel so ashamed now. Haha.
Once again im munching on my supper - Grape biscuits and milo though i just had my dinner at 9pm. I aint that hungry but i just felt like eating. Im sucha greedy girl. =D
As i was saying yesterday, i was packing my stuffs and came upon lotsa stuffs ever since my Primary School days. There's this girl, she was my bestie in Primary One. Her family migrated to Shanghai when we were in Primary Two. But we've been contacting each other via letters for some time before we officially lost contact.
I came across this letter which stated her email address, so i decided to try my luck in msn. Guess what? We're now chatting so excitedly with each other. Oh man, i miss her truckloads. She's so pretty and smart! RJ can? I feel so ashamed now. Haha.
sealed-with-a-kiss < 11:08:00 pm
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I spent the whole of today, packing my ever-so-messy room. And boy was i exhausted. I found another way of sweating out without doing any vigorous exercises, nor being under the sun. Just by packing my room, i sweat like Nigeria Fall. What sia..
So as i was packing my stuffs, i came across this huge titanic box full of letters, cards and my diaries. I read my diaries which was written when i was in Primary Six. It was hilarious. Every entry was about friendship problems, my dad whacking either my brother or my sis, or about my ballet exams asking my teacher to wish me luck and stuffs.
While browsing through my primary school days of autograph books, i realised ive a rather bad memory. I couldnt remember some peeps who wrote in there especially when they din stick their photo stickers at their profile. I tried hard to recall, but no i couldnt. Bad friend Amber, bad friend you are. hoo hoo hoo
Talking about photo stickers, i flipped through those numerous books of mine. From the long hair Amber to the short hair Amber and back to the long hair blah blah blahs, i realised i din change much. Except that i became uglier. Serious. I think those days without bothering about make-ups and such makes one look so much prettier and natural. How i hate putting make-up now.
Anyways, i read through some letters and stuffs written in my Secondary School days. Perplexed feelings though. I read on the part where i quarreled with my classmates and everything was just so wrong for myself. But come to think of it now, im okay with all of them now. Though i believe those unhappy stuffs we dislike about each other remained, we're actually all still friends after all those shits. Call me superficial, i am. Every one IS a backstabber and always be. Every single one of you hoo hoo is a hyprocrite.
But fear not my friends. Whenever you encounter those typical friendship problems with A or B or C, justfuck ignore it. Everything will turn out just as fine as time goes by. Real life example over here. Trust me.
And all those typical love problems people faced in the adolescence age, its just natural. When you look back at all those crying and boohoos, slitting wrists and trying different ways to die, you'll just think "im so stupid". Its all parts and parcel of life. So dont let a setback ruin your future.
Oh man, i think im counseling myself. What sia.. -.-
Anyhoos, dad mom and i went for dinner together in the evening. They ordered all of my favourite dishes. Sweet and sour pork, sambal kang kong, fried oyster with egg and fried tofu. Yummiliecious.
For those peeps that are wondering if ive got over the failed relationship, heres the answer. No, ive not. But its okay, its just another failed relationship ryte? Nothing new lah..i can handle it. hoo hoo haa haa.
p/s: we werent together in the first place. so yeah..ilu.
I spent the whole of today, packing my ever-so-messy room. And boy was i exhausted. I found another way of sweating out without doing any vigorous exercises, nor being under the sun. Just by packing my room, i sweat like Nigeria Fall. What sia..
So as i was packing my stuffs, i came across this huge titanic box full of letters, cards and my diaries. I read my diaries which was written when i was in Primary Six. It was hilarious. Every entry was about friendship problems, my dad whacking either my brother or my sis, or about my ballet exams asking my teacher to wish me luck and stuffs.
While browsing through my primary school days of autograph books, i realised ive a rather bad memory. I couldnt remember some peeps who wrote in there especially when they din stick their photo stickers at their profile. I tried hard to recall, but no i couldnt. Bad friend Amber, bad friend you are. hoo hoo hoo
Talking about photo stickers, i flipped through those numerous books of mine. From the long hair Amber to the short hair Amber and back to the long hair blah blah blahs, i realised i din change much. Except that i became uglier. Serious. I think those days without bothering about make-ups and such makes one look so much prettier and natural. How i hate putting make-up now.
Anyways, i read through some letters and stuffs written in my Secondary School days. Perplexed feelings though. I read on the part where i quarreled with my classmates and everything was just so wrong for myself. But come to think of it now, im okay with all of them now. Though i believe those unhappy stuffs we dislike about each other remained, we're actually all still friends after all those shits. Call me superficial, i am. Every one IS a backstabber and always be. Every single one of you hoo hoo is a hyprocrite.
But fear not my friends. Whenever you encounter those typical friendship problems with A or B or C, just
And all those typical love problems people faced in the adolescence age, its just natural. When you look back at all those crying and boohoos, slitting wrists and trying different ways to die, you'll just think "im so stupid". Its all parts and parcel of life. So dont let a setback ruin your future.
Oh man, i think im counseling myself. What sia.. -.-
Anyhoos, dad mom and i went for dinner together in the evening. They ordered all of my favourite dishes. Sweet and sour pork, sambal kang kong, fried oyster with egg and fried tofu. Yummiliecious.
For those peeps that are wondering if ive got over the failed relationship, heres the answer. No, ive not. But its okay, its just another failed relationship ryte? Nothing new lah..i can handle it. hoo hoo haa haa.
p/s: we werent together in the first place. so yeah..ilu.
sealed-with-a-kiss < 1:10:00 am
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Saturday, October 16
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Right..and once again.. IM SO DEAD TIRED!
Went tanning at Sentosa - Siloso beach today with Zhongming and his classmates. Weird eh? But they're all friendly people so i kinda enjoyed myself today. Zhongming, Chuonhong, Jeremy, David and one more guy i forgot his name, as well as, Vicky, Michelle and Jade. Yup.
Guess what? Im tanned!! yeah baby yeah. I can see the contrast so fking clear and im so happy about it. Im going to continue tanning till i die from heatstroke. Nah, im kidding. =D
Aftermath, ZhongMing and I went over to Isaac's birthday bash. Oh boy, i saw so many people. Not gonna name em all cos i'll take ages.
Witnessed a real life touching scene just now. Isaac's confession. And boy did it made me tear. I'm like so envious of Sabrina now. Though he treated her really badly for the past 2.5 years but now its like a total him, a new Isaac. I sincerely hope Sab will give him another chance. I really really cant imagine a guy crying while speaking his inner most emotions in front of like 30 odd people or more?
When will it be my turn? A guy trying all ways and means to get back together with me and making everything so sincerely, tearing, crying and all. It really made me reflect on my love life. All the guys in and out of my life during the past seventeen years. No one had made me feel like this before.
It was really touching and romantic. You peeps ought to witness that too. Its genuine, its real. Like a making in the movies come true. O man..im so so so jealous.
And that really made me think about him. Isaac had waited so long for her to be back in his arms. And yet he cant even be bothered to wait for me for like say..3 weeks? No, less than that i supposed.
But oh well, love is uncontrollable. I hope i'll come across one that can really wait for me. Am i so not worthy? I really wonder. Maybe this is me retribution heh? Oh fuck that. fuck it. =))
Oh yes, me and Eunice had to walk all the way out from that wulu wulu place to get a cab before the midnight charge. I almost died due to excessive perspiration. Haa..will people die from that? Maybe i'll be the first.. lol.
Not funny. -.- My toes are laughing. Ha Ha Ha. --my favourite quote for the time being.
Toodles~
Right..and once again.. IM SO DEAD TIRED!
Went tanning at Sentosa - Siloso beach today with Zhongming and his classmates. Weird eh? But they're all friendly people so i kinda enjoyed myself today. Zhongming, Chuonhong, Jeremy, David and one more guy i forgot his name, as well as, Vicky, Michelle and Jade. Yup.
Guess what? Im tanned!! yeah baby yeah. I can see the contrast so fking clear and im so happy about it. Im going to continue tanning till i die from heatstroke. Nah, im kidding. =D
Aftermath, ZhongMing and I went over to Isaac's birthday bash. Oh boy, i saw so many people. Not gonna name em all cos i'll take ages.
Witnessed a real life touching scene just now. Isaac's confession. And boy did it made me tear. I'm like so envious of Sabrina now. Though he treated her really badly for the past 2.5 years but now its like a total him, a new Isaac. I sincerely hope Sab will give him another chance. I really really cant imagine a guy crying while speaking his inner most emotions in front of like 30 odd people or more?
When will it be my turn? A guy trying all ways and means to get back together with me and making everything so sincerely, tearing, crying and all. It really made me reflect on my love life. All the guys in and out of my life during the past seventeen years. No one had made me feel like this before.
It was really touching and romantic. You peeps ought to witness that too. Its genuine, its real. Like a making in the movies come true. O man..im so so so jealous.
And that really made me think about him. Isaac had waited so long for her to be back in his arms. And yet he cant even be bothered to wait for me for like say..3 weeks? No, less than that i supposed.
But oh well, love is uncontrollable. I hope i'll come across one that can really wait for me. Am i so not worthy? I really wonder. Maybe this is me retribution heh? Oh fuck that. fuck it. =))
Oh yes, me and Eunice had to walk all the way out from that wulu wulu place to get a cab before the midnight charge. I almost died due to excessive perspiration. Haa..will people die from that? Maybe i'll be the first.. lol.
Not funny. -.- My toes are laughing. Ha Ha Ha. --my favourite quote for the time being.
Toodles~
sealed-with-a-kiss < 1:07:00 am
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Thursday, October 14
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Am having my supper now. Butter cookies and milo. How does that sound? mmmm..
Went blading with Ting just now. My ass hurts cos i fell twice. b-u-m-p. Thanks to Ting who diverted my attention to a bunch of army guys. One of em was holding a board that says "caution. marching troops blah blah" Cant remember what it said but that made me fell. And boy was i embarrassed. =((
Been spending my holidays really well these days. Monday i went over to Sentosa, Tuesday i met my bestest friends - Adrian, Nic and gang to chill, Wednesday i went over to Lyn's house for a swim, Thursday which is today i met Ting to blade and Friday, tomorrow, im going to tan at Sentosa again. After which im going to Isaac's birthday bash and then rest of Saturday and go blading with Ting again after church on Sunday. Wee~
My parent thinks im mad. I guess they felt that there is something wrong with me. Well indeed, there IS something wrong with me. I just fell outta love? And yes, im trying hard to forget about the pains by making myself busy and tired day in day out.
Had a talk with my sister last night before we fell asleep. She insisted that it was my fault because i rejected him in the first place. He had the every right to choose another girl to love. Yes, i agree. That is so true but after i rejected him, we became even closer than before. Anyhoo, she still insisted that he has no faults and couldnt be blamed for this outcome.
In addition, she said it was MY loss. Cos he treats his girlfriend very well. And once its over, we cant even be friends. Now what? I lost a love, and i lost a friend. Job well done.
Am having my supper now. Butter cookies and milo. How does that sound? mmmm..
Went blading with Ting just now. My ass hurts cos i fell twice. b-u-m-p. Thanks to Ting who diverted my attention to a bunch of army guys. One of em was holding a board that says "caution. marching troops blah blah" Cant remember what it said but that made me fell. And boy was i embarrassed. =((
Been spending my holidays really well these days. Monday i went over to Sentosa, Tuesday i met my bestest friends - Adrian, Nic and gang to chill, Wednesday i went over to Lyn's house for a swim, Thursday which is today i met Ting to blade and Friday, tomorrow, im going to tan at Sentosa again. After which im going to Isaac's birthday bash and then rest of Saturday and go blading with Ting again after church on Sunday. Wee~
My parent thinks im mad. I guess they felt that there is something wrong with me. Well indeed, there IS something wrong with me. I just fell outta love? And yes, im trying hard to forget about the pains by making myself busy and tired day in day out.
Had a talk with my sister last night before we fell asleep. She insisted that it was my fault because i rejected him in the first place. He had the every right to choose another girl to love. Yes, i agree. That is so true but after i rejected him, we became even closer than before. Anyhoo, she still insisted that he has no faults and couldnt be blamed for this outcome.
In addition, she said it was MY loss. Cos he treats his girlfriend very well. And once its over, we cant even be friends. Now what? I lost a love, and i lost a friend. Job well done.
sealed-with-a-kiss < 10:44:00 pm
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Wednesday, October 13
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im now sitting on my sister's lap trying to type this entry.. she's just so irritating. spoilt my hairband again. How irritating can she get? VERY.
Mystupid untrained Ebony urined on my sister's bag this noon and i had to wash the bag for her. So irritating. After which, popped over to Lyn's house to swim. Had lotsa fun stealing her stickers and irritating each other. lol.
Supposed to meet Ting to blade today, but that lazy pig was too lazy to get up from her sleep. So i guess we'll go blade tomorrow. Yay.
Went out to chill with Adrian and gang last night. Was kinda fun initially, but later i was a little depressed. But still, their "bu yao guan ta *shakeshead* and bu hao siao" made me really cranky. Im so glad ive got a bunch of wonderful friends to make me happy everytime i feel sad. Lurve them all. =))
Guess im going to bed soon..really tired now.. tata people.
im now sitting on my sister's lap trying to type this entry.. she's just so irritating. spoilt my hairband again. How irritating can she get? VERY.
My
Supposed to meet Ting to blade today, but that lazy pig was too lazy to get up from her sleep. So i guess we'll go blade tomorrow. Yay.
Went out to chill with Adrian and gang last night. Was kinda fun initially, but later i was a little depressed. But still, their "bu yao guan ta *shakeshead* and bu hao siao" made me really cranky. Im so glad ive got a bunch of wonderful friends to make me happy everytime i feel sad. Lurve them all. =))
Guess im going to bed soon..really tired now.. tata people.
sealed-with-a-kiss < 11:51:00 pm
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Monday, October 11
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Uploaded helluva lots of pictures taken at Sentosa - Palawan Beach today. Roll your pupil to the left and click the "pictures" link or simply click here you lazy peeps.
Had a really relaxing and enjoying time with ZhongMing, ChuonHong and Garry. Its was really fun, my miseries and agonies all seemed to disappear at that point of time. All i did was to smile and laugh out loud cos all 3 of them really made my day, they made me smile!
Poor me have to wait for those 3 guys and in the end, we reached Sentosa at only 2pm when we're supposed to meet at 11am. Now, whose fault is it that i couldnt get my tan? :stares:
Me and ChuonHong only managed to get an hour of tan, im not even dark! hahah. But Ah hong have red cheeks now..pretty boy x) lol. He's gonna kill me for calling him that. But i dont care. Pretty boy pretty boy. =))
Im like so addicted to tanning now. I wanna be tanned. As dark as Zhongming. LOL. im kidding. But i wanna be tanned! yay yay. Im going tanning every week! YES. And you guys are coming with me. I DONT CARE.
Im kinda tired now, so let me round this entry by saying..
I REALLY ENJOYED MYSELF TO THE FULLEST TODAY.THANKS GUYS, U PEEPS MADE MY DAY. ilu. literally.
Uploaded helluva lots of pictures taken at Sentosa - Palawan Beach today. Roll your pupil to the left and click the "pictures" link or simply click here you lazy peeps.
Had a really relaxing and enjoying time with ZhongMing, ChuonHong and Garry. Its was really fun, my miseries and agonies all seemed to disappear at that point of time. All i did was to smile and laugh out loud cos all 3 of them really made my day, they made me smile!
Poor me have to wait for those 3 guys and in the end, we reached Sentosa at only 2pm when we're supposed to meet at 11am. Now, whose fault is it that i couldnt get my tan? :stares:
Me and ChuonHong only managed to get an hour of tan, im not even dark! hahah. But Ah hong have red cheeks now..pretty boy x) lol. He's gonna kill me for calling him that. But i dont care. Pretty boy pretty boy. =))
Im like so addicted to tanning now. I wanna be tanned. As dark as Zhongming. LOL. im kidding. But i wanna be tanned! yay yay. Im going tanning every week! YES. And you guys are coming with me. I DONT CARE.
Im kinda tired now, so let me round this entry by saying..
I REALLY ENJOYED MYSELF TO THE FULLEST TODAY.THANKS GUYS, U PEEPS MADE MY DAY. ilu. literally.
sealed-with-a-kiss < 10:23:00 pm
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Sunday, October 10
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I hereby wish you and your girlfriend everlasting love and pure seriousness forever.
I hope we could still be friends even after all that rantings and crazy shits ive said.
I'm not that of a petty girl.
I know love isnt something that one can control.
This is fate and i accept it.
But i know our friendship ends just here.
I dont hate you, but i dislike myself.
It wont be for long till i forgive myself and my foolishness.
I'll be even more extra careful next time before i fall in love.
Guys, dont blame me if i dont trust any one of you no more.
It had been proven. You people's words aint trustable.
Goodbye..
I hereby wish you and your girlfriend everlasting love and pure seriousness forever.
I hope we could still be friends even after all that rantings and crazy shits ive said.
I'm not that of a petty girl.
I know love isnt something that one can control.
This is fate and i accept it.
But i know our friendship ends just here.
I dont hate you, but i dislike myself.
It wont be for long till i forgive myself and my foolishness.
I'll be even more extra careful next time before i fall in love.
Guys, dont blame me if i dont trust any one of you no more.
It had been proven. You people's words aint trustable.
Goodbye..
sealed-with-a-kiss < 10:29:00 pm
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Im crying so hard right now, my pillows are wet, my eyes are puffy red and protruding. i look like an alien but im not gonna care. Im just gonna cry out loud, all my woes, all my pains, all my agonies.
We talked it out yesterday, but came to no conclusions. I told him everything how im feeling but as usual he ignored me at the very last bit. Like i said, there were no conclusions but now i figured it out myself.
I just got "ditched". Aint the proper word to use right now, but anyhoo im gonna use it.
Define "dating". Answer: A guy and a girl out to the movies.
Ive no idea if he was all out to spite me but whatever his reasons are for telling me that he is going to the movies with a girl had definately successfully managed to make me cry and feel sour all over.
What an indirect way of telling me you no longer likes me. Thanks but its more hurting this way.
"I rather you be mean, than love and lie
I rather hear the truth and have to say goodbye
I rather take the blow, at least then i will know
But baby dont you break my heart slow.."
The heaven had definately made a fool outta me, playing me, twirling me rounds and rounds in big circles. Now i feel like a joker, a joke of the century. Oh, this aint the first time isnt it? Lemme see..this is the second time i get this kinda shit.
Chill baby chill, you're gonna get over it soon. You will darling Amber, you will. Learn from your lessons baby, never trust anymore guys. No matter what they say.
"I am beautifulGuys are not trustable, no matter what they say.."
I think its pretty cool being a lesbian. Imma try it one day.
Im crying so hard right now, my pillows are wet, my eyes are puffy red and protruding. i look like an alien but im not gonna care. Im just gonna cry out loud, all my woes, all my pains, all my agonies.
We talked it out yesterday, but came to no conclusions. I told him everything how im feeling but as usual he ignored me at the very last bit. Like i said, there were no conclusions but now i figured it out myself.
I just got "ditched". Aint the proper word to use right now, but anyhoo im gonna use it.
Define "dating". Answer: A guy and a girl out to the movies.
Ive no idea if he was all out to spite me but whatever his reasons are for telling me that he is going to the movies with a girl had definately successfully managed to make me cry and feel sour all over.
What an indirect way of telling me you no longer likes me. Thanks but its more hurting this way.
"I rather you be mean, than love and lie
I rather hear the truth and have to say goodbye
I rather take the blow, at least then i will know
But baby dont you break my heart slow.."
The heaven had definately made a fool outta me, playing me, twirling me rounds and rounds in big circles. Now i feel like a joker, a joke of the century. Oh, this aint the first time isnt it? Lemme see..this is the second time i get this kinda shit.
Chill baby chill, you're gonna get over it soon. You will darling Amber, you will. Learn from your lessons baby, never trust anymore guys. No matter what they say.
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I think its pretty cool being a lesbian. Imma try it one day.
sealed-with-a-kiss < 4:25:00 pm
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Saturday, October 9
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I can feel my eyelids getting heavier..
Just got home from Adrian, Nicholas and gang. Went for their bbq at Nic's place. Been long since i met up with them. Exams had ended, i felt a sigh of relief. phew~
Slacked, chilled, supper at Geylang and photohunt at Marine South before Adrian drived me home. Dead tired now. I felt as though ive consumed every bit of my energy and why? Cos i slept for only 3 hours last night and another 3 hours in the noon.
Studied really hard last night, fatigue overcame me and i dozed to dreamland at 1am. Alarm rang at 4am for me to get up and study. And yes i did, with the help of Yiling's and Winshire's wake up call. I revised really really hard, and guess what? I think im gonna flunk my accountings paper. Its so tard hard i wanna cry out loud.
Who said hard work pays off? And believe me, this aint last minute revision. So damn disappointed with myself.
On top of that, ive a terrible titanic ulcer on my back gum. Its hurting me so much i couldnt enjoy the food at the bbq. But in overall, i had a really great time and knowing some new friends too. waahhh, since when i become so sociable? haha.
When your dreams of getting a new love dies, nothing seems to work out well. Nothing tastes good in your mouth with an ulcer, and nothing feels good in your heart after another setback, another disappoinment. Guys..had made me disappointed once again. Im so gonna be independant and push em all down to the ground.
But im still not giving up hope on you boy, im still awaiting for your cares and concerns, your sweet lil lovey doveys that always put a smile on my face though its just some casual remarks. Your conversation with me always makes my day, but it seems like so far away. Everything seemed different now. Its all different ever since i started falling for you while u started to stop liking me. Fate had just made a fool outta me.
I can feel my eyelids getting heavier..
Just got home from Adrian, Nicholas and gang. Went for their bbq at Nic's place. Been long since i met up with them. Exams had ended, i felt a sigh of relief. phew~
Slacked, chilled, supper at Geylang and photohunt at Marine South before Adrian drived me home. Dead tired now. I felt as though ive consumed every bit of my energy and why? Cos i slept for only 3 hours last night and another 3 hours in the noon.
Studied really hard last night, fatigue overcame me and i dozed to dreamland at 1am. Alarm rang at 4am for me to get up and study. And yes i did, with the help of Yiling's and Winshire's wake up call. I revised really really hard, and guess what? I think im gonna flunk my accountings paper. Its so tard hard i wanna cry out loud.
Who said hard work pays off? And believe me, this aint last minute revision. So damn disappointed with myself.
On top of that, ive a terrible titanic ulcer on my back gum. Its hurting me so much i couldnt enjoy the food at the bbq. But in overall, i had a really great time and knowing some new friends too. waahhh, since when i become so sociable? haha.
When your dreams of getting a new love dies, nothing seems to work out well. Nothing tastes good in your mouth with an ulcer, and nothing feels good in your heart after another setback, another disappoinment. Guys..had made me disappointed once again. Im so gonna be independant and push em all down to the ground.
But im still not giving up hope on you boy, im still awaiting for your cares and concerns, your sweet lil lovey doveys that always put a smile on my face though its just some casual remarks. Your conversation with me always makes my day, but it seems like so far away. Everything seemed different now. Its all different ever since i started falling for you while u started to stop liking me. Fate had just made a fool outta me.
sealed-with-a-kiss < 4:23:00 am
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Wednesday, October 6
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This is killing me. Im upset. Very very upset. For an impatient person like me, this had definately crossed my limits. But yet, im still swallowing it all down in a gulp like this -gulps- and hoping to get over it.
Its so difficult to fall in love with a not-so-talkative person and a very "cool" man who potrays a im-cool kinda face and a laconic. It isnt difficult to start a conversation but hell was it difficult to keep it going. And throughout these few days of trying and more tryings, i fell on this very day, today, with a heartache. Im giving up! Watch, i said giving up, not gave up.
It got me really depressed and a total 360 degrees mood turnover. But nevermind, since im ready to change and correct my hot-temper, this is definately a good chance. I shall not affect anyone after being crestfallen and i will try not to get so affected by it too. yes yes. Let my fatigue deflate spiritually and everything would be back to normal.
The sun rises after every storm. No?
This is killing me. Im upset. Very very upset. For an impatient person like me, this had definately crossed my limits. But yet, im still swallowing it all down in a gulp like this -gulps- and hoping to get over it.
Its so difficult to fall in love with a not-so-talkative person and a very "cool" man who potrays a im-cool kinda face and a laconic. It isnt difficult to start a conversation but hell was it difficult to keep it going. And throughout these few days of trying and more tryings, i fell on this very day, today, with a heartache. Im giving up! Watch, i said giving up, not gave up.
It got me really depressed and a total 360 degrees mood turnover. But nevermind, since im ready to change and correct my hot-temper, this is definately a good chance. I shall not affect anyone after being crestfallen and i will try not to get so affected by it too. yes yes. Let my fatigue deflate spiritually and everything would be back to normal.
The sun rises after every storm. No?
sealed-with-a-kiss < 1:59:00 am
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Monday, October 4
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Imma kinda excited. Ive decided to give myself an English name, Amber. Originated from Shalyn's mama who couldnt pronounced my name. Amber was called because i live in Amberville. Amber from Amberville. Kinda lame i know, yes yes i do. But im kinda jaded for 17 years of my life, people have problems pronouncing my name right. This will thus save em from their difficulties and myself from listening to distorted pronounciation of my beautiful name. No? Haa.
Couldnt imagine my ex-boyfriend couldnt pronounce my name right even up till now. zZz :yawns:
I slacked the whole of today aimlessly though im pretty aware that my exams are officially starting on Tuesday. Tuesday's paper is my worst and most disliked subject, and ive yet even touched the book. Imma dead.
Everything seemed pretty fine and back on track. Im happy. But he doesnt seem like he is. Oh nevermind, promise me to give me more time to open up yes?
Imma kinda excited. Ive decided to give myself an English name, Amber. Originated from Shalyn's mama who couldnt pronounced my name. Amber was called because i live in Amberville. Amber from Amberville. Kinda lame i know, yes yes i do. But im kinda jaded for 17 years of my life, people have problems pronouncing my name right. This will thus save em from their difficulties and myself from listening to distorted pronounciation of my beautiful name. No? Haa.
Couldnt imagine my ex-boyfriend couldnt pronounce my name right even up till now. zZz :yawns:
I slacked the whole of today aimlessly though im pretty aware that my exams are officially starting on Tuesday. Tuesday's paper is my worst and most disliked subject, and ive yet even touched the book. Imma dead.
Everything seemed pretty fine and back on track. Im happy. But he doesnt seem like he is. Oh nevermind, promise me to give me more time to open up yes?
sealed-with-a-kiss < 1:29:00 am
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Sunday, October 3
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Just had a hot bath, i feel so refreshed now.
Today was simply a great splendid marvellous day. Happy birthday my bestest best friend, Shalyn! Love ya to bits*
Yup, so many things to talk about. Lets talk about the birthday surprise. Lyn simply screwed up all my plans cos of her indecisive mind. So my plans were like..frm Plan A to Plan B then to Plan C and back to Plan A then Plan D. Kinda complicated yes yes. But we had a great day, and the surprise worked out so well. O boy, im so glad she's feeling so happy about it.
Forget about the elaboration of Plan A to Z. The successful plan carried with lotsa loopholes, winking and eye-ings, smses like nobody's business. I could say that my, Ting's and Bird's acting skills was damn lousy, but thestupid not-so-observant Lyn wasnt even aware of anything.
We slacked around in the noon, and the real thing was carried out at night. Forced Lyn to go to Swensens at 11pm but way before that we already ordered an ice cream cake and told the waitress there about our smart plan. So, all 4 of us each had an ice cream and shared the fries. It was damn filling. Funny stuffs happened, the plan almost failed. But Ms Cranky Ting "salvaged" it. When the clock strikes twelve, an UNLIGHTED cake appeared on our table. Lyn was shocked for words. Everything turned out well. We shared the cake and another supplementary ice cream from Swensens. O boy, imagine the amount of ice cream we've ate in like 2 hours? I swear never to touch anymore ice cream for the next 1 month or so. All of us were so bloated and we felt so much like puking everything out.
Now thats towards the end of the day. Lets rewind back a little and look into the earlier part of the day.
Was rushing down town to meet poor Lyn who is left all alone there. Waited so damn long for that damn bus and guess what? It broke down right in the middle of the highway. I was -.- @$&*(^^^&. Im already late and i got stucked in the middle of highway under that scorching sun like a total idiot. And when the next bus arrived, it was so super packed but i managed to squeeze up there somehow. I waited for like 20mins okay! O boy, i was fuming mad!
Viewed the models doing their catwalk at Taka. O man, i was jealous of their fantabulous figure, x-factor and charm. So pretty! We were all commenting on how slim they are, how posh they look and everything else. Jealous jealous =((
Enough said, guess i am being too naggy right now. So dead tired but i couldnt get to sleep. Like what's new? And when i finally get to sleep, i'll have some nightmare. Its been like this for days. =(( :pouts:
Just had a hot bath, i feel so refreshed now.
Today was simply a great splendid marvellous day. Happy birthday my bestest best friend, Shalyn! Love ya to bits*
Yup, so many things to talk about. Lets talk about the birthday surprise. Lyn simply screwed up all my plans cos of her indecisive mind. So my plans were like..frm Plan A to Plan B then to Plan C and back to Plan A then Plan D. Kinda complicated yes yes. But we had a great day, and the surprise worked out so well. O boy, im so glad she's feeling so happy about it.
Forget about the elaboration of Plan A to Z. The successful plan carried with lotsa loopholes, winking and eye-ings, smses like nobody's business. I could say that my, Ting's and Bird's acting skills was damn lousy, but the
We slacked around in the noon, and the real thing was carried out at night. Forced Lyn to go to Swensens at 11pm but way before that we already ordered an ice cream cake and told the waitress there about our smart plan. So, all 4 of us each had an ice cream and shared the fries. It was damn filling. Funny stuffs happened, the plan almost failed. But Ms Cranky Ting "salvaged" it. When the clock strikes twelve, an UNLIGHTED cake appeared on our table. Lyn was shocked for words. Everything turned out well. We shared the cake and another supplementary ice cream from Swensens. O boy, imagine the amount of ice cream we've ate in like 2 hours? I swear never to touch anymore ice cream for the next 1 month or so. All of us were so bloated and we felt so much like puking everything out.
Now thats towards the end of the day. Lets rewind back a little and look into the earlier part of the day.
Was rushing down town to meet poor Lyn who is left all alone there. Waited so damn long for that damn bus and guess what? It broke down right in the middle of the highway. I was -.- @$&*(^^^&. Im already late and i got stucked in the middle of highway under that scorching sun like a total idiot. And when the next bus arrived, it was so super packed but i managed to squeeze up there somehow. I waited for like 20mins okay! O boy, i was fuming mad!
Viewed the models doing their catwalk at Taka. O man, i was jealous of their fantabulous figure, x-factor and charm. So pretty! We were all commenting on how slim they are, how posh they look and everything else. Jealous jealous =((
Enough said, guess i am being too naggy right now. So dead tired but i couldnt get to sleep. Like what's new? And when i finally get to sleep, i'll have some nightmare. Its been like this for days. =(( :pouts:
sealed-with-a-kiss < 3:11:00 am
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Saturday, October 2
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I cant get to sleep. Kept tossing and turning with that almost fractured neck of mine. Credit goes to my sister, who "strangled" me so tightly when i pounced on her. Ouch.
Lotsa stuffs flashing across ma mind. Its all in a whirl. Everything's just roaming about, no directions, no starting point, no ending point, no nothing.
Let me tell ya a story. Its all about a girl, a girl who thinks she's falling in love with a guy. She aint sure herself, but ever since that particular day, she has been thinking, missing and even dreaming of him. Sometimes, its such a sweet dream, but twice it was bad. Everything was fine and going smoothly, till one day both of them lost their cool. The bull-headed stubborn creatures had a tiff, everything changed from then on. She feels that they're a little back on track now, but the initial magical feeling aint there anymore. Same venue, but the atmosphere had changed, for the worst unfortunately.
She still holds many doubts. She isnt sure if he's the one. She's afraid, of hurting each other, of ruining a friendship, afraid of making the wrong choice and most importantly, afraid of falling in love..again. She knows its selfish, and had clarified all things to him. But like it or not, the decision falls in him if he wanna continue this arduous journey of a new relationship.
She doesnt know him inside out, she hardly knows what he is thinking. But theres one thing she knows, he is different from the other guys. How different? She has yet to come out with an answer. Its just so..different.
Moving on to pursue the right kind of feeling. Is it love? crush? or a like? She will get to find out. In the meantime, she's stucked. With his images all over her mind and heart. She wanna keep it cool and paced, but her deepest emotions forbid it all. She has been living in denial and alone in this melancholy place of darkness. She's in urgent need of a light, a guiding star and a guardian angel..--him.
I cant get to sleep. Kept tossing and turning with that almost fractured neck of mine. Credit goes to my sister, who "strangled" me so tightly when i pounced on her. Ouch.
Lotsa stuffs flashing across ma mind. Its all in a whirl. Everything's just roaming about, no directions, no starting point, no ending point, no nothing.
Let me tell ya a story. Its all about a girl, a girl who thinks she's falling in love with a guy. She aint sure herself, but ever since that particular day, she has been thinking, missing and even dreaming of him. Sometimes, its such a sweet dream, but twice it was bad. Everything was fine and going smoothly, till one day both of them lost their cool. The bull-headed stubborn creatures had a tiff, everything changed from then on. She feels that they're a little back on track now, but the initial magical feeling aint there anymore. Same venue, but the atmosphere had changed, for the worst unfortunately.
She still holds many doubts. She isnt sure if he's the one. She's afraid, of hurting each other, of ruining a friendship, afraid of making the wrong choice and most importantly, afraid of falling in love..again. She knows its selfish, and had clarified all things to him. But like it or not, the decision falls in him if he wanna continue this arduous journey of a new relationship.
She doesnt know him inside out, she hardly knows what he is thinking. But theres one thing she knows, he is different from the other guys. How different? She has yet to come out with an answer. Its just so..different.
Moving on to pursue the right kind of feeling. Is it love? crush? or a like? She will get to find out. In the meantime, she's stucked. With his images all over her mind and heart. She wanna keep it cool and paced, but her deepest emotions forbid it all. She has been living in denial and alone in this melancholy place of darkness. She's in urgent need of a light, a guiding star and a guardian angel..--him.
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